I think this post is ultimately just an admission that a) you don’t understand men and don’t want to and b) you’re kind of narcissistic and annoying. The internet needs less of this, because it needs less of everything. Go live your life and give up on masturbatory blog posts. This kind of thing is white privilege. Only white people are “privileged” enough to think that these sorts of nonsensical ramblings matter, and if you aren’t white externally you’re very white internally and nobody likes this kind of whiteness.